Oh Yeah

WOW the semester is finally over!

Feels awesome to be on holiday right after an exam, liberation is the word that comes to mind.

Finally can watch TV without guilt, but the best part is SLEEPING! Yes, trying to get rid of the horrible dark circles that make me look like a zombie.
Unfortunately my stomach problems have come back to haunt me yet AGAIN so it's kind of like a bittersweet moment.


A few things I need to get done....
Renew my driving licence, no longer require the P stickers!
Buy new earphones for my mp3
Repair car CD player (or rather SEND it for repair LOL)
Clean my desk that is filled with notes and junk
Buy Aphrodite album
Go sight seeing (suddenly feel like being outdoors and stare at animals and stuff)


And of course have lots of FUN! hehehehehe :D

Just 1 To Go!

I survived one of the toughest weeks of the semester!

3 papers have come and gone. Satisfied. Things turned out alrite :)
I could have studied harder, but ya know the outcome could also have been a lot worse. So I'm thankful.

Glad I never gave up though it was so tempting to just put down the notes and watch TV. I know I won't fail, but I want MUCH more than settle for a pass. Call me greedy, I just like HDs. Who doesn't rite?

What I'm about to say is extremely corny so brace yourself...
Everytime I come through a tough time, I feel so much more in touch with myself. It makes you strong. I've always felt that the rough and tough moments in life is what defines our character the most.


Just one more paper on Monday. Fundamentals of Biotechnology.
Seems easier than Chemistry or Food Science but I have been taught to never underestimate anything.

After that, the celebration of freedom will begin hehehehe :)

Realization

OK so Chemistry paper is just 12 hours away... Frankly I feel overwhelmed!

I did finish reading all the notes and tutorial questions, but I don't think it helps much.
Was looking at past year papers today. The nature of the paper is just meant to kill us off.

The questions are tricky and designed to deduct marks at every mistake we make.. such as unit conversion and stuff. And there's just TOO MUCH to remember. It will be like 20 over questions making up 180 marks. The entire paper is about 30 pages!!

Thankfully I don't need a lot to pass, since the internal marks are very decent.

But I don't just want to pass, I want to do well...

Can't help but feel hopeless...

Better get back to the past year papers

Suddenly I miss freedom :(

Cleopatra's Wheel

I'm back... AGAIN!

Yes feeling normal today.

Do you know I'm quite a sucker for superstitions and rituals?
I have plenty of beliefs, some are ridiculous yet I still follow it in fear that something bad will happen if I don't.

Especially during exams I have unusual 'rituals'. Maybe I mentioned it before. Things like not cutting my hair and not eating out the night before a paper. Very likely related to my obsessive nature haha.

I also believe in good luck charms. Sure you heard of the common ones like rabbit's foot, horseshoe, leprechaun's pot of gold, etc.
I find this one particularly interesting: Cleopatra's Wheel.


It was worn by Cleopatra (duh) and supposed to grant 24 types of happiness. It's too long to list here, so check it out at:
http://www.calastrology.com/cleopatras-wheel.html

Don't know how effective it was, but it sure looks stunning doesn't it. When you stare at it, it almost has a hypnotizing effect...

Hope looking at it brings me lots of happiness (and luck) I need starting tomorrow! :)

Just A Moment

I shouldn't be blogging now but hey I'm here haha! Shoot me.

Totally digging the new look, I like the green water colour effect and topping it with stars in the night sky is just soothing to stare at. Makes me want to blow up the roof, I mean blog more often, at least for now (classic "hot hot chicken shit" moment).

My mind is a little off right now so don't take anything I say too seriously.

Not going to talk about exams becoz I have been on about it like a broken record, sure you're sick of it too. "Just do it" ala Nike style.

Speaking of Nike I'm sure you know how fond I am of the brand. Super cool and sexy. Especially them sneakers. I dream about being part of the Nike design team. Everyone has that crazy dream which they know is never gonna happen, so collaborating with Nike is one of mine.

How cool would it be to design your own Nike sneakers and see them displayed on shelves worldwide? Or I would love to focus on tennis wear. Tennis is such a trendy sport, Nike always ensures their players look great on court.

Wow I feel partially drunk even though I haven't been drinking. It's that light headed feeling. Woooooo let's see what else I have to say.....

Ohh Wimbledon is starting on Monday, I love grass yay! Unfortunately I think I'm gonna miss the first week's action due to my 3 papers >.< Well the second week is more exciting anyway. Once again I'm rooting for Nadal and Sharapova. If they both win the singles titles respectively, maybe I will shave my head in honour of them...


Got 2 weeks off in July. No plans so far. Feel like going somewhere. It's been way too long since I went on vacation. OK maybe not THAT long, but 3 months of craziness in Monash can feel like you've been through a year of hell.

Also I have been making some Yhart lately. Just loose pieces here and there, nothing cohesive to form a collection. Maybe I will post it up during the break on my deserted Yhart Sale if you guys still remember what that is hahaha. I don't give up that easily.


OK I think that's enough. If I continue writing you're probably gonna give it a miss. You know when you're typing a blog post, it's totally like talking to yourself. Anyway I monologue to myself quite often. Or maybe it's thinking out loud. Hope no one sees me doing it and thinks I'm a freak.


OK I SHOULD STOP. Clearly I'm not very sane tonight.

Thanks for reading though. Appreciate it. Till my next random neurotic post :)

First Days

First days make me nervous.

Not necessarily first times, it could be something I have done a hundred times before, but doing it for the first day since a long time somehow unsettles me.

First day of a semester after a holiday.
First day driving to uni after not dealing with morning traffic in a while.
AND of course...
First day of an exam.

It's not about how difficult the paper is, and it doesn't matter how prepared you are. It's the process. Maybe it's because I have forgotten what it's like, so the uncertainty scares me a bit.

BUT it's amazing how fast the nerves go away. I like the moment right after you do it and think "Gee that wasn't so bad after all" and then everything goes back to normal.


SO yeah, I just need to get myself through Day One. The clock is ticking.

One Week

Exactly one week till my first paper. At times it feels like an eternity, like I've been revising forever. One week has passed since my last update. Nothing much happened really, just reading day after day. Not sure how much will stay in my head though.

It's weird. When you're on study break, it's like you are wrapped in your own bubble. Not going to Uni makes me feel isolated, like how a Kung Fu master would hide in a cave to train for weeks before emerging at the dawn of the martial arts competition (if that makes any sense LOL). Was never a fan of group study, it's tradition for me to prepare alone.

When studying at home, I can't help but wonder what my course mates are up to. What's their progress? I like to put myself in the middle. There's always someone behind me (which is comforting in a twisted way) but there is also a handful that's much much more diligent than me. So I only compare myself with them. The feeling of not being good enough can be a strong driving force. It's quite inspiring when you have peers that are so determined to succeed, it makes me think it's possible to work even harder than what I'm doing now.

OK enough of that, I'm not working that hard actually. Not the type of person that can stay up all night to read. I still get plenty of sleep, and I sandwich in plenty of breaks between study sessions. Love to take snack breaks, listen to music, still watch quite a lot of TV.

I believe in self rewarding. If you finish what you're supposed to read for the day, then heck you deserve a damn break! I don't understand why some get so uptight about exams. I care about it immensely, but still it's no reason to get edgy. It's harder to remember facts when you're stressed out!


SO listen to some music and have a good week everyone!

Turning Point

Hehehe I'm happy to report that my revision plans have had smooth progress since my last post! Yes the momentum finally came, so now I have to be careful not to lose it by working consistently to "keep the flow going" so to speak.

It's due to a huge motivational boost I received a few days ago. Some of you already know as I excitedly announced it on Facebook haha. Wasn't bragging, I was just too overjoyed I had to share it. Got a cert from Monash that says I "received the highest academic mark" in one of my units SCI1020 (that's statistics!) for last sem. I really wasn't aware of it, so to suddenly discover something so pleasant out of the blue is like WOWWWWW!

And it couldn't be more timely. I have been struggling to study for this sem's final exam. This gift immediately inspired me to get going. ON the same day I saw the cert, I was able to concentrate and finished some notes :)


And I'm also happy because today I got a taste of some tracks from Kylie's upcoming album! Yeah a megamix of 6 tracks on Aphrodite was leaked on YouTube. My favourtie is Get Outta My Way... such a happy tune!



Not sure how long before the officials remove the video, so have a listen while it's available! :)

Uh oh

Gee I'm finding it awfully difficult to stick with my daily study schedule.

In all my previous exams there has been sufficient time between papers to revise, but this sem all papers are packed closely together towards the end of the exam month... forcing me to cover everything before the first paper on the 21st.

This is dangerous for someone who's so used to last minute studying! Right now the intensity isn't here becoz my mind is not feeling the pressure or fear yet. The exam seems miles away even though I know it's not (LOL). I just can't get rolling, it's frustrating as I can neither study nor relax now.

And it's also hard to study notes on the computer. Sure the slides are coloured and the pictures are much clearer, but I don't seem to concentrate as well compared to print out notes, where you can highlight and conteng on important points. Also looking at the computer screen all day is BAD for the eyes! No good printing all the notes now though, I feel it would be a waste of resources.

Haih... sorry I just felt the need to voice my dilemmas. I know it's minor, I mean it's not like I'm being swallowed by a phython or kidnapped and held hostage by a bunch of hypnotized pigeons. OK I think I watch too much TV.

In need of healing. Music will do the trick.

Low to No Motivation

After celebrating my freedom from assignments for several days, it hit me that I really shouldn't be chilling yet. The exam is 3 weeks away and the days are slipping by ridiculously fast. I wake up, eat, go online, play some games, eat, watch TV, sleep and the day is over.

Today I saw some past year papers and it nearly gave me a heart attack. Sigh now I realize just how far I am from being ready. I immediately devised a study plan that is actually bearable, but it requires consistent daily effort from ermm today onwards! Unfortunately I didn't meet today's requirement. So tomorrow I have to work double hard, or else the day after will be triple effort and then it just goes on and on and on till I die of overload from the mounting pressure.

Currently the motivation level is virtually zero because I have been resting for so many days. I'm back to being a lazybug. I actually had much more momentum working on assignments and reports. So now I need to rediscover that erm..... "passion".

Then again if I wait long enough, when the FEAR kicks in I'll naturally get moving. But that process is like self torture so let's try to avoid it this time LOL.


Once again I'm back to being my lazy, neurotic, obsessive self. Hello June! :p