Summer Bummer

Well actually it ain't a bummer, saying it just coz it rhymes! :P
OK maybe I'm a lil jealous that some of you are on holiday while I'm stuck with classes.

Summer school has been going on for a while. So far still alrite, and I appreciate how peaceful the campus is now. Minimal ppl, plenty of carpark, the computer labs are like for private use, not another soul in sight! Yes I enjoy solitude haha.

Till now my brain can still handle the accounting and marketing concepts. I prefer accounting class, 60 peeps only, whereas marketing is about 160. Interesting becoz class consists of students from various schools, esp marketing where we have science, engineering, arts, computer science and of course business students. I think the diverse backgrounds would come useful in discussions and assignments. It's all about having an open mind.

*credits to my 2nd sis for the pic above

The main event this month is NOT Christmas, but my big sis' wedding! Last Sunday was the PJ dinner and it was crazy (in a good way)! A massive gathering of relatives, most of which I didn't know how to address but looked familiar. Best part was how we all dressed up for the occasion. I must say we looked pretty darn good! Pictures still processing. My sisters, the groom and I also performed a song on stage! I quite enjoyed the adrenaline rush.

Round 1 was a success, now next Monday will be the "chut moon" ceremony and then the Ipoh dinner. It's like a month long celebration haha. Everyone is busy but particularly excited because all of this is a first for us.

As I said Christmas seems downplayed this year. The entire family won't be around for Christmas dinner and gift exchange like previous years, a tradition that I cherish. So it's true when they say the only constant in life is change. But I will find ways to have a happy Christmas :)

Unfortunately irregular eating times lately has brought Mr.Gastric back, possibly to spend Christmas with me :( My stomach is still hurting now as I type this @_@ My stomach woes never seem to end. I miss the days where I could eat freely without fear of the consequences. But I'm aware of those who suffer far worse conditions and illnesses to deal with, so I'm thankful for all the other health problems that I don't have!

All about positive thinking rite! Stay jolly peeps, and in case I don't blog again soon, here's to a very Merry Christmas to friends, family and all readers of my lil blog :)

cheers!

Yippee

Results (exam) were out today! Once again I wouldn't have known the exact time of release had it not been for Facebook. Sometimes I wonder how they find out... do they refresh the web page every other minute just to see if it's out? I wouldn't. Too stressful.

Well results are better than my expectations, probably because I lowered them after last semester's decline in overall grade. If you don't expect, then you won't be disappointed rite! I'm psyching myself here. But really I'm super happy, definitely the best I have achieved in quite a while! Now that the bar is set high, I know I'm going to be disappointed next year because I doubt I can score any better than this. I know my limits :/

How you spend the study period before and between papers is crucial. I mean this applies to last minute study goers like me :P If you have been studying consistently all year long (who does that?) then screw you, go ahead and bask in glory now you freak!

For this sem, I made a study timetable just like the previous sem and stuck to it faithfully. I honestly don't know how I managed to stay disciplined and abide by the schedule, but I'm so thankful I did. The thing about studying last minute is that FEAR of failing/screwing things up becomes a motivation. It's the ultimate driving force. Do or die kind of scenario. If you don't sense the fear, it means you don't care about it enough. I get the same nerves whenever I play a tennis match. There's just too much to lose, and a hell lot worth fighting for! :)

As I have mentioned, group study was never my thing. I always study alone, it's tradition haha! I gotta admit those 3 weeks before the first paper was quite lonely. Too quiet at times. Everyday I would just sit in my room and stare at the notes. When you're alone, the mind starts playing tricks. I always wonder how the others are doing, what's their progress and all. Sometimes it's just too stressful to hear about how much they have done revising (PEER PRESSURE!) so I normally don't ask! I work alone and focus on my own progress. I comfort myself by thinking repeatedly that as long as I follow my schedule, it will be fine. Typical OCD behaviour. Kind of hermit like, but it gets the job done.

I know I'm saying all these things now that you probably don't care for, but it's just kind of emotional. Getting the results today, it's rewarding to know that the sacrifices I made this sem have paid off. So many times I have been frustrated and felt so agitated at all things Monash. I remember the insecurities I felt dealing with the possibility of doing badly. But at the end of the day, I know I gotta have faith in myself, because every obstacle that has come my way in the past, I have dealt with it and moved on even though at times there wasn't a clean victory.

No one is gonna look after you better than yourself. Always believe in your abilities and mental strength because it only gets stronger and stronger each time you succeed in overcoming a challenge. Gosh I know this all sounds stupid and it seems like I'm giving an inspirational speech to children, but I really mean it when I say you gotta believe in yourself.

Truly self belief is the most powerful force in life. Cheers yall :)