gotong-royong

Today was a super tiring day.

The occasion? Moral studies group project.
We went to Harvest Centre in Sentul for the classic community service: gotong-royong.
Gathered at college around 7.30am. (damn early rite for a Saturday)
Reached destination around 9.

The 40+ of us were split into smaller groups, and my group had one of the dirtiest jobs. Cleaning up a staircase at the back of a 3 storey building. When I first saw the stairs I was shocked. Totally filled with junk and the amount of dust suggested that no one had clean the place in years (seriously). And it was kinda dark and stuffy too coz there were no windows, so it was like the perfect setting for a horror movie. Carried lots of stuff down the stairs. I was later assigned to do some touch-up painting for a gate. Haha I realize that I suck at painting.

Even though today was so tiring I had fun. I actually got to know some of my MUFY mates better. They are nice ppl. Unfortunately not all of them... I was slightly annoyed to see some ppl who were just standing around chatting not doing anything useful while we worked our butts off. I guess they think they are too good to do chores and get dirty.
Doing voluntary work should be from the heart. If they don't want to contribute I couldn't care. As long as I know I did my part. Small but at least I put in effort.

Sorry I didn't take any pics. Coz my hands were so filthy I didn't want to dirty my phone.

As a result of this project I can't play tennis this week =(
Never mind, I'll just take it as a chance to have a break. Also it's raining so much nowadays I probably wouldn't get to play anyway. Last week rain, this week busy. 2 weeks already T_T

Hav to wait till next week. I wonder what's going to happen then... Earthquake? Or alien invasion?

Eng, Bio,.....

Helo how's everyone doing?
Am i the only one experiencing problems with the Internet? Damn slow lah...

Life this week is kind of work filled. (as usual X_X)

There is an English group presentation tomorrow. I'm a little nervous, not becoz I'm afraid to speak in front of the class, but really due to the lack of discussion and preparation among the team members. It's not our fault, the lecturer gave us the topic on Tuesday and expected a complete power point presentation in just 2 days! We did not rehearse, and until now I've not seen the power point slides yet, so it might turn out to be disastrous! (fingers crossed)
But at the same time it's kinda fun. I like the idea of doing group presentation. In a way there is less pressure. U feel better out there when ur not alone. If only we had a couple of extra days to refine things, then I'm sure the product will be more polished.

Oh and there's a Biology test this Friday! It's the first Bio test this sem and to be honest the topic is tough. Currently studying inheritance, so we have to know all the diff crosses, the ratio of the genotype and phenotype and also gene linkage. Sounds familiar? I like Biology, but I hate Biology tests. All memory work. T_T

And I've gotta do a Kylie round up haha. Now that the Brits is over, Kylie is going to Mumbai this week to film a video for a Bollywood film. She's not acting in it, but she's singing 2 songs for the movie composed by AR Rahman, who recently won a Golden Globe and 2 Academy Awards for his work in Slumdog Millionaire (Btw i wanna watch Slumdog Millionaire!).
Super cool. Can't wait to hear the tracks =)
Kylie will also be headlining a free concert 'Top of the Mountain' for skiers and boarders at Ischgl, a ski resort in Austria in May. If only I was there... =P


This remix of 'Boombox' is the latest Kylie track that I can't get outta my head.


Time to go. Have a nice week everyone =)

Totally N.K.B.

Some of u must be wondering what N.K.B. is.
It's a term I picked up in NS, in fact it was commonly used by the trainers in my camp.

OK... Suspense over. N.K.B. simply stands for 'nasib kurang baik'. Haha now that u know, it seems kinda lame rite =P

As I was saying, the past 2 days have been really N.K.B...
Went to play tennis on Friday nite, barely half an hour into the game it starts pouring and we get drenched, scrambling into the car.
Wanted to play on Saturday evening, before we could even leave the house, it was raining. =(
But we went anyway after it stopped. We played for a while, and what do you know? More rain.

Sigh. Rain can really make or break a tennis player's day.
The government should invest in making more indoor courts. Since they are already trying to promote this sport (like by paying Roger Federer to come play an exhibition match) they may as well put in more effort to encourage Malaysians to participate.

And it's not just the rain. The extreme and unpredictable weather in this country makes it hard for the players. It's either burning hot or sometimes freakishly windy. Not to mention that certain public tennis courts are so worn out, maintenance is long overdue.

I know tennis is not a world changing or life saving activity. Maybe that's why it's not given priority here. But still, there are ppl who care about this sport.

To be honest, I don't know why I like tennis so much. I just do.
Tennis makes me feel good about myself.
It has offered me so much, taught me so much about being an individual.
And I have invested so much time and energy into it.
Tennis allows me to explore my potential, to constantly improve.
Maybe that's why our relationship works.
I love tennis, and tennis loves me back in the sense that it will never abandon me.
It's like a rock that I can always hold on to.


You must think I'm crazy. Yeah maybe I am, but at least I feel good and I believe in myself. =)

Kylie at Brits

The 2009 Brit Awards was held yesterday and Kylie was definitely hosting in style.
She made 6 wardrobe changes in one night.

Duffy was the big winner, winning Best British female, Best album and Best breakthrough act.


There was a short comedy dance performance from Kylie together with co-hosts Mathew Horne and James Corden. Kylie looked amazing...

Mini Update

Nothing exciting or stressful going on so far this week.

Good good... I like it like that.

There's a Chemistry topic test this Thursday. I don't seem worried at all, and it's not becoz I'm confident. I actually suck at Chem. It requires too much imagination. It's hard to understand.

Speaking of hard to understand, a certain topic in maths is giving me a headache. Combination and permutation is killing me. Even though we've done it b4 in high school, it seems to be more complex now. I don't know when to use which method. Sometimes I wonder why we need to learn this stuff anyway...

Oh I stumbled upon a better performance of the Kylie song I posted not too long ago.
Here it is, from the show "An audience with Kylie". Nice vocals.

I'm Finally Free!

I can't believe I'm saying this, but I'm finally at peace with myself.

It's amazing how things can change in a matter of days.
After burying myself with negativity for such a long time, now I see light at the end of the tunnel.

Been sick for so long, suddenly I'm well.
Been stressing out with my research project for so long, suddenly it's done. (the first draft at least)
Been upset becoz of something/someone, suddenly I'm happy becoz I learnt to let go.

This weekend has been great. Met up with some high school friends on Friday for lunch. At SS2 Wong Kok AGAIN haha.
While some of my college mates are busy rushing with their research project, I finished mine by Friday. So I got to play tennis on both Sat and Sun.
And I spent Valentine's with my family, even my sis from Melaka came back. We had a reli good dinner at a Chinese restaurant. Yum yum...


I realize I can be happy just the way I am.
I can live without certain things.
I just need to let go.
And smile.
=)

Itch

I'm just itching to play tennis.

It's been 2 weeks since I last stepped on a tennis court, and I've found a sudden inspiration to play. This brings me back to the time when I was in NS, sigh I was dreaming about tennis almost everyday for 3 months.

2009 has been terrible for me health wise, but TENNIS is the one good thing so far.
I'm really understanding my game and the court now, plus I'm working hard to make my serve smoother.

Now that the research project thing is done, I can finally HAVE FUN!

Hope it doesn't rain tomorrow..

What A World

Some ppl reli aren't that nice.

All I did was ask for some help. And u disappeared almost instantly.
If u don't want to help just say No.
Or if ur reli busy just decline. Does it take that much time to say a few words?

Sigh. I can't believe I tot u were a decent guy.

I usually do not ask friends for help unless I reli need it.
Well, at least now I know.

Don't worry. I won't ask again.

Put Yourself In My Place

Suddenly thought of this song. I think this is the most sad sounding single from Kylie. It's not too deep, but still meaningful.

A performance from the 1998 tour


Btw Kylie lost to Daft Punk for best dance/electronic album in the Grammys. T_T
Never mind. Awards are over rated anyway...

So is love.
This Sat i will be celebrating Singles Awareness Day (as Wen Zhen calls it for us ppl who are not attached haha)
It took me a while to interpret what Singles Awareness meant. At first i thought it was a celebration of being single, being free and independent.
But on deeper thought, i realize when you have to be aware of something it's usually negative, eg. HIV awareness, breast cancer awareness day. So i guess Feb 14 is a day for single ppl to be reminded that they are still single. LOL, if u put it that way, it kinda sucks rite. Who came up with this celebration anyway?

But being single is really not bad. U are like a free spirit with no obligation to please anyone.
I'm not saying that I don't want love, believe me I welcome it, but I feel there is no need to rush.

ANYWAY... for those of u who are attached, then have a good time this weekend. =)

Woof woof, surprise!

I was alone at home typing my research paper while everyone else went out for lunch.

The door bell rings.

A family friend appears with some other ppl. Next to them is a dog.

Suddenly I remembered my mum saying that we were getting a Golden Retriever puppy from a friend's friend becoz they cannot keep her.

Oh it was a puppy alright, i can tell it still looks young, but the size.... My first impression was Oh My God, WTF! This dog is huge. And since I was alone at home, I freaked out coz i tot they were going to leave me with the dog.

I'm not exactly a dog person. They scare me with their hyper active jumping and licking.

Thankfully the others came home soon enough. My sis is the one who loves animals.

The rest u can say its history.

Now we have many dogs, fishes, tortoises and 1 rabbit. Not to mention the birds and squirrels that come by every morning. My house is like a freaking petting zoo. Come visit. Admission is free haha.

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btw I'm finally making some progress with my project. Intro is almost done. Next up is 1st argument. Thank god =)

Help

Yet another post on a frustrating day.

I'm blogging becoz I'm trying to avoid doing my work.

The English research project is driving me crazy. It's actually not hard, but it just requires a lot of time and effort. Something I clearly don't have today.

I just can't focus. Something has been on my mind (not work related) and it's distracting me from functioning properly. I try not to think about it, however the feeling is strong it can't be ignored. Is it just all in my head or have I been right all along? This is confusing.

I feel sick.
Figuratively and also literally.
The fact that i have a painful sore throat doesn't help.

Great. Now I'm just ranting. Sorry.
I know the only person to blame is myself.


This whole research project thing is getting old. I just wanna get it over & done with.

I want the misery to end.
A perfect song comes into mind, but it can't be embedded. So go check out what song I'm talking about: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=R8yw2Aa6ODw

Oh Crap I Did It Again

Sigh... I seriously need to get whipped in the ass.

Once again I've successfully demonstrated my laziness and last minute attempt to do things.

Was supposed to photocopy some important stuff, but I didn't do it yesterday even though i was so free. Haha so today I go out and realize that all the shops are closed. Of course they r closed, it's a Sunday for crying out loud. To make things worse, tomorrow is a public holiday, which means the shops are probably closed as well.

Now I have to do it on Tuesday, causing things to be inconvenient.

Talk about making life difficult for myself. Haih, when will I learn?

Funny Video

Was on msn with Zi Yang, he asked me to watch this video on YouTube.

I tot it was kinda funny, but cool at the same time.

The Mum Song



And since Valentine's day is just around the corner, i tot of this song. Still one of my fav Kylie songs.


The 51st Grammy Awards will take place on Monday. Kylie is nominated for 'best electronic/dance album'. Hope she wins! Then later next week, Kylie will be co-hosting the Brit Awards at UK. I wonder if she will perform. Probably not.

I'm still sick. Always tired so sleep a lot. It's ironic you know, when i was healthy i didn't do my work, but now when i NEED to do my work, i'm so tired i can't really focus.

All i can say is: Life, oh life, oh life... [u know this old song don't u =)]

Why so serious?

OK, this is not a serious post, but i'm talking about a relatively serious topic.

Been thinking about some stuff lately.
I've a lot of time to think, coz when ur sick, u have an excuse to NOT do any work or assignment. Haven't done anything productive in 2 days. Just sitting around waiting for time to fly.

Anyway, I was thinking about my studies coz i just had a Maths test yesterday. Everytime there's a test I always want to do well, so I work hard.
This got me thinking why I bother to do so... I mean why do I care so much about results? Some ppl are content with getting a passing grade, but why not me?

It's quite certain that I can fulfill the requirement to get into Monash. And if you have been reading my blog, u would know that I have already established that it's almost impossible for me to get the entrance scholarship....... So high distinctions will get me in, BUT credits are sufficient to get me in as well.
So are we on the same page? U guys get what I'm trying to say? If u don't it's ok coz I'm kinda psychotic anyway lol...

But it's so strange if I don't try my best rite? Most ppl from MUFY will probably never understand me, but u guys from CHS know what I mean rite?

I think ALL of this can be related back to the days I spent in Catholic. I think CHS made me into what I am today. I mean no disrespect, I still think CHS was one of the best things that happened to me.
Remember during exam times everyone would be holding a book at the corridor outside the classrooms until the very last minute and the teacher would be yelling at us asking us to come into the exam hall immediately? Even in the canteen some ppl would bring their notes along. Everyone was busy revising, making the most of our last minute memorizing. I KNOW not all CHS students were like that, but still u have to admit the environment there really made u feel like working hard right?

Yeah, somehow this part of me was brought on to college. Actually if u think about it like that, I'm not the strange one, but the rest of the ppl there are.

But I still don't understand why I'm so serious about studies. Why can't I just lighten up and have fun? I can't help it, that's just the way my mind thinks, it's not conscious. It's hard for me to change now, coz I'm already so used to being like that.

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OK.. U know what's funny? Everytime I write a post like this, I ask a lot of questions, but I end up giving all the answers myself. It's like I'm explaining it to myself.

After reading what I just typed, I really think that I think too much and constantly over analyze. I always try to come up with intellectual explanations for the things I do or the way I behave. Actually there is no need to do so. I guess I'm coming up with all these explanations to defend and protect myself, becoz I feel vulnerable and insecure emotionally. Wow, what a conclusion. =P

OK.... I should stop thinking.

Please don't take this post too seriously, becoz I'm definitely not very serious about it. This is just something that I'm considering. U know, to kill time.


But one thing I can say for sure is that I'm slightly crazy. After all, no one is all sane right?

Just Another Post

I am sick. (literally)

Tired.
Fever.
Flu.

Barely one week after my break and I'm already feeling like crap.
Sigh. I hate going to college.
Waking up early in the morning IS NOT MY THING.
And staying back until 5pm IS ALSO NOT DESIRABLE.

If only I could hibernate in my bed for a few months... I'm picturing it in my head now. All curled up under the soft blanket lying comfortably in bed in a nice cold, dark room.
Ahhhhhh... how great would that be.


P.S. (Please don't pay attention to what I'm saying. Sick people tend to be delusional and speak nonsense.)

End of CNY, Aussie Open

Sigh it's a pity good things come to an end. But life must go on.

This year's CNY can be described in 2 words: Simple & Fun

Nothing out of the ordinary, I did things that I do every year. Visit relatives, have nice meals, gamble. It doesn't change much. Maybe that's why I like it. This year's celebration is kinda relaxing.

This week I spent most of my time watching tennis... Oh I had a tiring game yesterday, I almost twisted my ankle and pulled a shoulder muscle. Lucky lucky..

Just finish watching the men's final. In my heart I wanted Nadal to win, but now that he has done it, it doesn't feel that great. It was sad to see Federer break down in tears during the prize giving ceremony. You can really feel how badly he wanted to win. He had his chances, but Nadal just came up a little better.

Serena Williams trashed Safina in the women's final. It was a quick match and kind of an anti climax becoz everyone was expecting a better show.

Anyway, it has been an incredible 2 weeks of tennis. Congrats Rafa and Serena!

Hmm.............. back to reality, got classes tomorrow. Oh god, i have so much to do for my English research project, I barely did anything this whole week. I'm so screwed... And there's a Maths test coming Wednesday. Reality sucks eh ;P