Yippee

Results (exam) were out today! Once again I wouldn't have known the exact time of release had it not been for Facebook. Sometimes I wonder how they find out... do they refresh the web page every other minute just to see if it's out? I wouldn't. Too stressful.

Well results are better than my expectations, probably because I lowered them after last semester's decline in overall grade. If you don't expect, then you won't be disappointed rite! I'm psyching myself here. But really I'm super happy, definitely the best I have achieved in quite a while! Now that the bar is set high, I know I'm going to be disappointed next year because I doubt I can score any better than this. I know my limits :/

How you spend the study period before and between papers is crucial. I mean this applies to last minute study goers like me :P If you have been studying consistently all year long (who does that?) then screw you, go ahead and bask in glory now you freak!

For this sem, I made a study timetable just like the previous sem and stuck to it faithfully. I honestly don't know how I managed to stay disciplined and abide by the schedule, but I'm so thankful I did. The thing about studying last minute is that FEAR of failing/screwing things up becomes a motivation. It's the ultimate driving force. Do or die kind of scenario. If you don't sense the fear, it means you don't care about it enough. I get the same nerves whenever I play a tennis match. There's just too much to lose, and a hell lot worth fighting for! :)

As I have mentioned, group study was never my thing. I always study alone, it's tradition haha! I gotta admit those 3 weeks before the first paper was quite lonely. Too quiet at times. Everyday I would just sit in my room and stare at the notes. When you're alone, the mind starts playing tricks. I always wonder how the others are doing, what's their progress and all. Sometimes it's just too stressful to hear about how much they have done revising (PEER PRESSURE!) so I normally don't ask! I work alone and focus on my own progress. I comfort myself by thinking repeatedly that as long as I follow my schedule, it will be fine. Typical OCD behaviour. Kind of hermit like, but it gets the job done.

I know I'm saying all these things now that you probably don't care for, but it's just kind of emotional. Getting the results today, it's rewarding to know that the sacrifices I made this sem have paid off. So many times I have been frustrated and felt so agitated at all things Monash. I remember the insecurities I felt dealing with the possibility of doing badly. But at the end of the day, I know I gotta have faith in myself, because every obstacle that has come my way in the past, I have dealt with it and moved on even though at times there wasn't a clean victory.

No one is gonna look after you better than yourself. Always believe in your abilities and mental strength because it only gets stronger and stronger each time you succeed in overcoming a challenge. Gosh I know this all sounds stupid and it seems like I'm giving an inspirational speech to children, but I really mean it when I say you gotta believe in yourself.

Truly self belief is the most powerful force in life. Cheers yall :)