notes from my past (literally)

helo. today is a P.H. so i'm really free... no homework to do, no tests to study for...
i got so bored i decided to clean my room (yes, i admit i'm slightly obsessive)

wow, u wouldn't believe how messy my room is...
i mean on the outside everything looks neat, but inside the cupboards & shelfs i've got so much junk, even the notes and files from my SPM days!

then i stumbled upon something which i forgot of its existence... it was a book which i compiled all my writings (poems to be exact) over the period of 2004-2006. i went through it and it reli brought back lots of memories...

i thought it would be appropriate to share some of it with u.
as u can see, the quality of my work improved over time =)


Friendship is... (undated, year 2004)

Two or more people,
that help each other when they're in trouble.

Spending time together,
Sharing secrets with each other.

Always willing to lend your hand,
Wear the same clothes that are the same brand.

Lending him something when he needs it,
Play with his puppy and help feed it.

Always be there when he is sad or happy,
A long lasting relationship that cannot be bought by money.
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UP'S N' DOWN'S OF LIFE 2006 (written 14/3/2006)

Where do I begin?
So much has happened,
So much has gone,
So many different feelings to express into ONE.

In short,
Life is always challenging,
Although sometimes I feel
like its nothing.
This year I see change,
Everyone is different in some way.
Change may be good,
A doorway to new happenings,
But sometimes I fear,
Fear that it will never be the same again.
I miss and cherish the old times,
But I also look forward to a better day.

Sometimes life is just oh-so frustrating,
We feel pressured in so many ways,
Tears shed down like a river
down our face,
Just feeling under the drain.
But now you look back and see,
The so called obstacles we once faced,
are but the size of a pea.
Remember that the problems we meet
Are just like the ones
We had beat.
Be strong and you will not drift away.

At times we get lost,
Confused by our sight and thoughts,
Just don't know what to do,
Sit there feeling so so blue.
Don't worry,
let your experience guide you,
Daring to try new things,
Making mistakes isn't a big thing,
Just as long as you gain something,
In the pathway of learning.
Put all your past experiences
into a ball of powerful forces.

Learn as you go,
Don't give up and say no,
Handling life just like a pro.
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OK, this next one is a little DARK...about the other side of mankind...
but i'm over that phase now...this piece is reli good... i write best when i'm frustrated or upset!

THE TRUTH THROUGH MY EYES (written 13/11/2006)

What's inside a human is full of emptiness,
What you see outside is nothing but a show of pretentious.
A living soap acted by the utmost talent,
Talent which often is shifted and twisted.
Why do we do the things we do,
Put up with the trash that we all litter.
Somehow everyone does the same,
Playing over and over this ridiculous game,
Perhaps wanting to make something out of their names.

Stars collide with one another,
The same goes for human conflict and disaster,
Stirring up the flame within,
Extinguish it before it leaves a stain.
Joy and sadness, playtime and sickness,
Are all together put in a frame.
Wear a crown, eat food picked from the ground,
And not even make a single sound.
Envies and pities, sympathy and jealousy,
All point to nothing but fakeness.

Be hardworking or live like a king,
What's the point of doing so.
Be sarcastic, do things ironic,
Trying to be someone drastic or classic.
Tell a joke, try not to choke,
You call it humour, I call it a sharp poke.
Determination overshadowed by criticism,
Bring on the hatred, do something wicked,
Get caught for being mindless.
Show your true colours,
No need to hide those feathers,
Loose yourself and bite on those doubters.
Be a fighter, strut your glitter,
Exhibit the qualities of a sole survivor.

Act like a monkey, dance with a donkey,
Make a fool of yourself in those poc-a-dot panties.
Always a loser, runner up to the winner,
Just lacking that you know what X factor.
Dreamers will remain as dreamers dream,
Seekers end up with a few broken splints,
Sit back and enjoy this exciting scene.

Superstars call it smoke and mirrors,
Commoners watch fascinated in amazement it seems.
Is this silliness or a lack of wisdom?
Grumpy widows high up in the hill,
Laughing children playing like Jack & Jill,
Will all fade away not now but soon.
Gather round, whisper in soft sounds,
The odd one out is the joke of the town.
Love someone, as warm as it sounds,
Divorce comes knocking on the marriage door.

Come to an agreement,
Break it off the very next moment,
Hey, who still holds on to their word.
Greed and pride, deadly sins alike,
Make this world a whole lot darker.
Believe in this, forget about that,
We all share a world of denial.
The reign of terror,
The human world is a horror,
So why do we even bother?
Nevertheless, there's no need to be scared,
Because you and I all contribute to this fest.
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Oh i also wrote one really personal piece in 2007 and i feel that was my skills at its very best. So far only one person (who was special at that time) in this world has seen it, and i don't intend to let anyone else have a peek.
Now i feel inspired to write again... Will let u know if something good comes around =)